Publishing Sunflowers In The Dark

About this campaign

Suicide. It’s hard to talk about. It’s hard to think about. It’s hard to do. For someone to reach the point of wanting to end their life by their own hand… No one deserves to die in a way that made them wish they were never born. I was once someone who wanted to die. I researched, I planned, I almost went through with it. If you think it’s selfish, you’ve never been suicidal. You’ve never had to sit with feeling empty or constantly wanting the pain to end. The mental pain. The emotional pain. The physical pain. 4 years ago I got a call. It was one of the worst phone calls I’ve ever received. A good friend/role model had ended his life. I couldn’t think, I couldn’t speak. I felt sick to my stomach. I cried so much and I wanted to scream. I knew in that moment that’s how my loved ones would feel if I committed suicide. I also knew my buddy wasn’t suffering with the thoughts and the numbness anymore. It’s such a hush hush topic. If we don’t speak about it then it’s not happening, right? That idea needs to change. We need to open the floor for these conversations. How is your mental health? Do you have the support you need? Sunflowers in the Dark is a story about living with mental illness. I want to share my story so it helps others gain the knowledge they need in regards to mental health. I’m currently holding a tshirt and hoodie fundraiser to help with the funding of publishing my book.